Kind of interesting how many times I am asked, what am I listening to in my headphones. I am not listening to music, or anything piped into my headphones. It is actually peaceful white noise that simply takes the edge off my poor overstimulated auditory system. I am so sound sensitive sometimes a person’s breathing bothers me. I am so sensitive I don’t pay attention to one conversation but tune into several, as much as eight to ten at a time. Try juggling that in your brain on any given Sunday. I am hearing not just the words but also the emotions in the tones of people’s voices. There is so much pain it is hard to carry at times, but I soldier on knowing that I have only the power to hear but not the power to heal.
Just when I get calm something else will distract me and I am in this vicious cycle of overload. I am wishing for more peace but the world doesn’t seem to hear ME, ironically. How do I take all this bombardment of information? I have to be very selective of what my mind dwells on. Only good comes from good thoughts and bad comes from dwelling on the bad thoughts, whether they are yours or someone else’s. I am grateful for positive thinkers and family who are always guarding their thoughts and words around me. Maybe they are listening after all. Knowing how my brain is presently functioning will hopefully help people understand me and others they see either wearing their noise canceling headphones or archaically plugging their ears with their fingers. Just speak softly and kindly to us. We will respond so much better. You can then see us as we really are inside.
You interpret us by how we behave under such stressful environments yet without the sound chaos we are just like you, except our minds still run at 10 times the speed of most. Everyone wants to be a genius, yet I’m saying it comes at a price not many of us would willingly pay. For those of us who have been gifted, just remember we might return it if we could.
I am so personally excited to share how it feels to be sound sensitive, I will find your comments most enjoyable. So please send a comment.