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DEFEATING THE BULLY FROM WITHIN

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My story would depress even the strongest optimist.

My story is one of dark sorrow and empty sadness that is hollow.

Poisonous thoughts are what cause pain and depression.

Why does a person continue to choose to drink the glass of poison when a glass of love is just as easy to grab hold of?

I am emerging from the ashes of a troubled past.  Some say it is a miracle while others say,    “It is about time”.

How long must I want to see myself with love?

Depressing thoughts overwhelm me when I am on top of my game.

Feelings of helplessness are my crutches.  Pain is the ringing in my ears.

Each day is an obstacle course I must learn to navigate.

Fear of failure is my mountain to scale.

Promises of a new day keep me hopeful.

Battling with your negative mind is like warring with someone who knows all your weaknesses and shows no mercy.

The Bully that lies within your head is your worst enemy.

“I am nothing”, “I am hopeless”, “I am worthless”, are the bullets I continue to take.

Will I survive such brutality?

Will I be free of the Bully that lives inside of me?

Pray I am free and pray for all to be freed.

Love will always prevail if we choose it over hate.  This choice starts from within.

Good day my fellow warriors.  I am fighting until all negative thoughts perish.

Are you with me?

Love will prevail.  (1 Cor. 13:4-8A)

Love,

Isaac

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GIVING

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Volunteering brings me joy!

Everyday I ponder what I can do to be a happier person.  While I am well aware of the Bible principle that “there is more happiness in giving than receiving”(Acts 15:28), I still am intrigued by how this works.  Of course there is a level of joy to see someone elated to receive your gift.  Yet the same joy is felt by the giver and the receiver even if the giver is anonymous.

Why does this alway work when the majority  of people are focused on getting, not giving.  Well just as sure as my book hits the floor as I drop it, governed by the law of gravity, the law of giving is just as predictable.    Each day we must capture a picture of what our day would look if it were a great day.  I am often surprised at the end of the day I have closely matched my picture of a good day.  Everyone’s interpretation of a good day is different.  I think you just give it your best and believe it is good enough for today.     Will we dream of being joyful? If so, then giving and generosity will always be present.  For dreams to experience themselves we have to have faith in ourselves and want to become something a little different with each breath and thought.  We continue to evolve into a greater being each moment we live life this way.  I think it boils down to either living for yourself or living to give.

I must admit I have much to learn and own when it comes to this principle.  But awareness is the first step.  Wanting to acknowledge our weaknesses and concentrating on better willingness to change is a step in the right direction.  A good friend once encouraged me to start seeing each day as one step on a journey of a thousand steps.  He encouraged me to ask myself daily, “Am I taking a step forward”,  and not focus on how many more steps are between me and my destination.     I am still very much stepping one day at a time.  Everyday I feel I am getting faster and more efficient in my steps.  Before you know it I will be running, so the steps then are nothing to accomplish.  We are so encouraged with progress and we neglect to recognize it unless it is major.  Let’s all encourage ourselves and others by acknowledging we took our steps forward today.  Life is a journey let’s enjoy all we see and experience along the way.

 

Sincerely,

Isaac

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DAN THE SEA CAPTAIN

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                                                      Dan The Sea Captain

Dan is the Captain of a band of boarder collie misfits who set sail just off the coast of California in search of the lost at sea Prince Iz-Man.
At sea the ship endured much turbulence. Each day at sea was valuable to the life of our dear prince. Iz-Man meant the world to Dan as he was once the prince’s dog of choice. Having a childhood fever the young prince made Dan his best friend and translator. The young prince had muted his voice out of sorrow for his life as it had been. Dan was his only joy in his present life. Just as they started to live happily came a jealous Sea Monster envious of their joy. Life shifted when the Sea Monster swept our dear young nobleman out to sea during his daily swim. Dan immediately mustered up a group of hunting dogs to motion a rescue of his loyal friend who had become his world.
Not under the turbulent sea would anyone dare sail but Dan. He searched night and day for his nobleman. Having sailed the sea he moved to the most dreaded South Pacific. Life would be sour as he would have to sneak out his nobleman from the hands of the Sea Monster. More than strength, love moved him to never give up. Rescue was the only mission with soul. So he turned on his team of trackers to test the Sea Monster.
sea-monster-2Surprisingly, they found the Sea Monster hiding much like Sea Monsters do in a cove in the deep South Sea. Love was so strong that jealousy could not see the light of day.
The Sea Monster was sleeping so sound the boarder collies sneaked past him unnoticed. They quickly grabbed the young prince and hurried to their ship. One collie accidentally stepped on the toe of the Sea Monster and woke him up. The Sea Monster then noticed his prince was gone and started to chase the pack of dogs as they scurried onto their ship with the young prince by their side. Inches past the reach of the Sea Monster the ship caught a strong wind sweeping it out to sea.

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Fearing the Sea Monster would follow, Captain Dan had ordered a barrier of sharks waiting that the Sea Monster not dare cross. Dan’s sweet special Prince was safe again.isaacs-book-ship-2
Some say the Sea Monster still exists, but as long as Prince Iz-Man has Captain Dan at his side he no longer fears life or anything in it. Hope and happiness was then restored and healed the young prince.

THE END

Written by Isaac Dzama

May 2015

Every year in school we are required to write a short story.  Little did I know just three months after writing this I would receive my service dog, Barris.  We may not sail together but he is certainly my dog of choice.

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Thankfulness

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SUNSETS ARE ALWAYS UNIQUE

This time of year people focus so much on giving thanks for all that they have in life.  My own life has things I am grateful for.  I am grateful for my health, my Dad, and my dog, Barris.  With each day I try to think about the good things in my life and somehow my life appears to be so much brighter.  Just the mere mind focus and shift to positivity and gratefulness creates this amazing feeling of success and accomplishment by having something to be grateful for.  The truth is we all have things to be grateful for… life itself is a gift.  Everyday we wake is an opportunity to give love to others,  which is the pipeline to happiness.  (Acts 20:35).

Just under estimating how much we’re gifted with finds us in denial that life is a gift.  If  we hate our life then change it.  If we love our  life then more things to love keep coming our way.  Can we justify hope if we don’t show faith?

I am grateful for my Mom who never gives up on me even when I give her little reason to dream .  I am grateful for the blue sky and ocean breeze, especially after a Santa Ana wind quickly moves out.  High tides at the beach send me to a place of utter bliss as the waves bash my sorrows away. I am grateful for horses who rock me to dream like a baby when I ride.img_3765

Everyday something we experience is worthy of gratitude, some days obviously more than others.  Watching the news so many people who have fame, money, and everything  the world views as a dear sweet life, are often times checking into hospitals or rehab?  Say what you may,  but remembering who we are, grateful to everyday, is a healthy way to live.

So lets take the opportunity to live with gratitude everyday, not just today.

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Isaac

 

 

Catalina

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Santa Catalina Island is a unique island off the coast of southern California.  After seeing it from my neighborhood for eight years I finally got to travel by boat to see it.

img_9683      Catalina Island is known for its pristine harbor with boats of many shapes and sizes.  I found the harbor to be my favorite place on the island.

We went snorkeling at Lover’s Cove which was enjoyable except when the underwater submarine kept blowing its horn at me as if it owned the cove.

img_9673      We did take an open air jeep tour with the Catalina Island Conservancy, which I really enjoyed.

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The encounter with the mighty buffalo was certainly  what we wanted to see high up on the mountainside, and the buffalo did not disappoint.  These creatures are quite interesting to see up close with their fuzzy ears and woolly maned heads.

So what do these mighty creatures tell us?   Eco systems are not meant to be disturbed,  as Catalina buffalo are proof of that. I was on the inner interior of the island and could see the struggle the integrated eco system has on native plants and animals.  The eco system is so delicate the slightest interference can completely change the appearance and  the island itself forever.

What are we doing to preserve places that are unique and interesting like Catalina?  I wonder what Laguna Beach water would have looked like and how many different kinds of fish and kelp were there 60 years ago?  Much of what we do to the environment resembles a waterfall.   What we see on the surface is often all that is recognized or valued.  Underneath is an entire world of dependent eco systems.  If we redirected the waterfall it may make new eco systems but leave the old one vanished for good. Can we take that chance with certain habitats?

Humans are similar to eco systems.  Understanding we are delicate creatures of habitats ourselves, we must respect how much we alter ourselves with medications and surgeries. The result of abrupt change, without supporting the other areas of codependency we have neglected to consider, could result in us forever being unbalanced or unsupported.  I know my own self and sometimes I am left under-supported neurologically when my routine or lifestyle is suddenly drastically altered.  Sometimes the changes are not controllable, like the buffalo who refused to be relocated off the island of Catalina after a movie shoot.  What then?   Each scene is one that must be given serious thought as to the interruption of normalcy.  We see the work of the conservancy and are grateful for their work of preserving such a landmark as Catalina.  What conservancy do we attempt for ourselves?  img_9691

Seeing us as buffalo roaming a strange place isn’t that far off from how I picture myself.  I can’t expect the whole world to adapt into a new world just for me, but small changes and appreciation for who we are will sweeten the environment for changes that benefit all.   Some of us will remain and some of us will fade away as if their waterfall was redirected and they anticipated no change .  Time has no mercy for those who expect no change. So are you a Catalina bison or sea kelp?  Each is beautiful to look at, but one has been there as long as we know and the other claimed its mark in recent history. Both contribute to the attraction and beauty of Catalina.  Don’t we want to see them both?  Remember with change we grow.img_9562

Sincerely,

Isaac

 

Allegiance

 

img_9525As we move on to different stages in our growth, maturity and possibilities, we at some point have to decide who we want to be and what we stand for.  There is much controversy today over our rights and what or who we pledge our allegiance to. So much so that we understand what we say and do reflects our deepest allegiance. Everyone expresses this in some form or another whether consciously or subconsciously.  Work, money, power, greed, notoriety, or government, all claim a place for our allegiance. What have you claimed by your actions and life to be yours?

Not everything is worth our allegiance.  I must confess the only thing truly worthy of such action is the Creator of all things.  Other than our God Almighty, what must we pledge our lives and very existence to?  Just recently I was honored to express my dedication to live my life in support of the highest power and one who governs with love, justice, power, and wisdom.  I have wanted to do this for several years.  When you are not talking you tend to listen keenly and observe much. To my special circumstances I am grateful to be able to make my own decision.  If you are not sure who you give allegiance to,  just think of what you spend the most time and energy on and what you think about all the time.  I am often thinking about the future when I will not have the struggles I have today.  I try my best everyday to reach attainable goals and leave the rest to faith in a better world ahead thru the rule of God’s kingdom.  Doesn’t require tests or pills,  just loyalty and faith. Doing is equal to reality in our belief.  What do I mean?  Our lives reflect what is important to us.  So we may claim something is important but what are we doing?

I don’t know anything more trustworthy than to ally with the Creator of all things.  No one is more deserving nor more powerful than the designer and the former of all things that exist (Rev. 4:11).  My outward expression of full allegiance is my decision and based on much study and thought.  Not so easy for someone like me to do, but I did it,  and I am happy and grateful and feel I have purpose.

Jehovah God, our Creator and Almighty being,  has the ability to see our potential despite our limitations.  He is the “God of all comfort” (2 Cor. 1:3,4), and who doesn’t need comforted?    All of you who encouraged me and came to support me whether physically, virtually, or in spirit, I thank you.

You have helped me reach an important milestone in my life.  It is just the beginning…

Kindly,

Isaac

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Connected

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Soaking up the stillness of peaceful Alaska at Columbia Glacier on the Lulu Belle

How do you describe a place that makes you feel so connected to yourself and the world surrounding you?  Paradise!   Even in this world full of distractions, our minds can connect to raw nature in Alaska.  Under such peace and freedom from the negative hum of media, we can actually connect at a time when everyone is yearning to disconnect from their devices.  I love technology, as it makes it possible for me to type this blog.  We live at a time and in an environment dictated by social media. I have been spending years to improve my social skills and yet society is moving in the opposite direction.   Social media trains people to rely on typed words to communicate without actual personal interaction.  I can speak from experience that an emptiness is left in or souls when this is left to stand alone in our relationships.  In some ways you would think this would make it easier for me, yet I wonder is this the direction of elevated humanity?

I am almost sure we are stifling the natural bond the world has known until now. How do we embrace this change in technology and still stay connected as humans?  We must think of solutions before it is a lost art of  personal emotional interaction.  Ways to stay connected are families who play, eat, and pray together.  I love cards, games, and love to eat.  All is well when everyone feels loved and accepted and this is not always conveyed thru typed words. So let’s take some time everyday and talk personally to the ones we love.  We can still stay connected. I am not sure we can continue to stay connected as we were created to be if we don’t.

 

Sincerely,

Isaac

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She keeps me connected!
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Hiking the Exit Glacier in Alaska
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The Crew on our trip of a lifetime!