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GRADUATION!

untitled(338of352)-Edit I am now officially a High School graduate.  I don’t feel much different, but I am different.  How?  I don’t have to spend all those ridiculous hours in school anymore.  So I have a diploma now.  Does anyone really care?  No one seems to care if you get a diploma but everyone seems to have an opinion if you don’t.  Really a diploma is simply proof that you endured years of gruelling prison of the mind.

Will I become something in this world?  I hope so?  Knowing I accomplished what many questioned I could, is quite rewarding.  I remember the times I didn’t think I would get the thumbs up to graduate and yet here I am.  Many times I ask myself was it worth it?  I guess everything is worth finishing if you started it.  If you finish you at least feel accomplishment .  If you don’t, you just wonder if you should have, and get weighed down with self doubt.  I am sure I already carry enough self doubt I don’t need to add any more.

Getting on the next road is a bit overwhelming but I am so ready for an adventure.  I am so tired of the same old surroundings, same old routine, I could scream.  I might scream anyway, but I scream from excitement not frustration.

Thankfully I am surrounded by individuals who guide and motivate me.  Jehovah is with me, with my family, my team, and my friends, and “I will lack nothing “, (Psalm 23:1).   My life is full.  I am grateful for the dedication of my parents and for the patience and forgiveness of my siblings.  Your belief in me has lifted me when otherwise I would have crumbled at the daunting task of living with this disability.

I thank my dog, Barris for giving me joy and calmness over the past 3 years.

I would also like to thank my Grandparents who continue to encourage me.  I love you.

To Kayleigh, I owe so much to you.  Without your perseverance and belief in me I would have never been able to venture outside of family to help in the Hindi field.  I am starting to believe many things are possible.

I am not sure all of you who comment on my blog understand how much you have meant to me.  All of you encourage me to keep writing even when I am not into it.

Graduation is certainly not the end.  To quote a famous Chinese Proverb, “A journey of a 1000 miles begins with a single step”.

Here is to the next step…………

Yahoo!!!   (Pretend I threw my cowboy hat in the air.)

The Graduate,

 

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Pressure

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Pressure.  It seems everyone has pressure in their lives today.  Pressure to fit in, pressure to perform, pressure to have friends, everyone seems to have a level of pressure that is almost a breaking force to their joy in life.  But not all pressure is bad.  For example, under intense pressure we see  beautiful diamonds formed. The powerful result of positive peer pressure  can cause us to reach new heights in our lives we may have not been strong enough to do on our own.  Yet under intense pressure we see an entire world of people struggle to meet life’s expectations.  I am sure a certain amount of pressure is good for us, keeping us moving and changing and growing.  Yet some levels of pressure can paralyze our thinking and make us feel like we are failures and want to give up.

What is the difference between positive pressure and negative pressure?  It is often the motive.  Good motives create good results and the opposite occurs with bad motives creating bad results.  A perfect example of this is a bitter attitude towards life. It will only poison our present gift of life and spoil our outlook on each little miracle of the day.  Miracles, you may ask.  What miracles?  The sun coming up every morning, the birds chirping, the gentle breeze, the masterpiece the sun paints every evening for us to enjoy.  Did you see the sun today?  Did you hear the birds?  Are you going to look for the sun’s suprise artwork this evening?  These gifts are ours to remind us of what we have to be thankful for.  It is these things we draw from to relieve the pressure this world bombards us with.IMG_4823

I often wonder what life would be like without this intense pressure weighing down on me everyday.  I would imagine it to be so liberating as if a veil has been removed from our vision.  My concern is how to find the peace of mind to keep this veil off.  I believe we must pay attention to the little miracles that are happening everyday right in front of our eyes.  Fear is what blinds us of what is right in front of us.  How are the miracles in your life affecting you?  Sometimes a simple flutter of a butterfly or a dash of a hummingbird is all it takes to remind me of how fortunate I am to have been able to witness such a miraculous creature in nature.  Will we crumble under pressure or will we soar like the eagles?  I personally prefer the perspective of an eagle.  Fear is the downfall of so many of us.  Why not see life through the eyes of gratitude instead.  The view is much better up here.

 

For now,

Isaac

 

 

FINDING JOSIE

IMG_0112      I hope everyone finds their Josie.  I am so grateful each week I get to see her and ride her.  She is so considerate, gentle, forgiving, and caring.  Some may think it impossible for a horse to be all these things, but she is.  She is beautiful in form and strength.  I am in love with this girl.  She is supportive and patient.  I am talking about my horse,  Josie.  She isn’t really mine but she makes me feel that way .  I am hoping she will always enjoy me as much as I do her. IMG_0146 Why do I love horses so much?  Horses are better than pills in a bottle to calm your heart and soul.   Trying to push myself to be more independent I am.  She motivates me because I see what my life might be like if I was able to care for a horse of my own.  Horses are  motivation in a world of false hope.   They never disappoint.  Prancing high above our fears and worries they carry us thru our pain to a place of being.  Happiness emerges when we feel safe and laughter and joy abound.

Josie wasn’t trained to help people like me but she chose to accept her role in being a gateway to independence.  Will she know how important she has been to me?  I’m sure she understands I love her, but how much, how could she?  It doesn’t effect a moment of her riding to wait for praise or credit.  It is just what she has chosen do.  That is true giving.  I hope we all find a Josie in our life, whether equine, feline, canine, or human.  Perhaps we can be a Josie to someone as well.

A horseman,

Isaac

 

*Special thanks to Sherry at Hoofprints in Orange Park Acres for her amazing equine program.

DEFEATING THE BULLY FROM WITHIN

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My story would depress even the strongest optimist.

My story is one of dark sorrow and empty sadness that is hollow.

Poisonous thoughts are what cause pain and depression.

Why does a person continue to choose to drink the glass of poison when a glass of love is just as easy to grab hold of?

I am emerging from the ashes of a troubled past.  Some say it is a miracle while others say,    “It is about time”.

How long must I want to see myself with love?

Depressing thoughts overwhelm me when I am on top of my game.

Feelings of helplessness are my crutches.  Pain is the ringing in my ears.

Each day is an obstacle course I must learn to navigate.

Fear of failure is my mountain to scale.

Promises of a new day keep me hopeful.

Battling with your negative mind is like warring with someone who knows all your weaknesses and shows no mercy.

The Bully that lies within your head is your worst enemy.

“I am nothing”, “I am hopeless”, “I am worthless”, are the bullets I continue to take.

Will I survive such brutality?

Will I be free of the Bully that lives inside of me?

Pray I am free and pray for all to be freed.

Love will always prevail if we choose it over hate.  This choice starts from within.

Good day my fellow warriors.  I am fighting until all negative thoughts perish.

Are you with me?

Love will prevail.  (1 Cor. 13:4-8A)

Love,

Isaac

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HELP

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Woods Cove Laguna Beach

What is help?  It means assistance of either thought or action.  The first step is recognizing you need assistance.  Then it requires the acceptance of such assistance.  Why is this important?  Without the acceptance or desire for help the game changing support could be right in front of you but never live because you didn’t follow the first two steps mentioned.

All of us need help at times.   I have come to the point where I am gratefully assembling a team of assistants to help reach goals I have placed before myself.  I am thrilled to share my new assistant with all my followers.  Her name is Kayleigh and she is one of the kindest positive people I know.  She will be assisting me with writing assorted deep content for my book.  She will also be helping me with research projects outside of the home.  Kayleigh is excited to join me on my journey and I couldn’t be happier to have such a believer and supporter on my team.  She has mastered a foreign language, spent time abroad and now she embarks on another adventure,  me.  She will not regret it.  I will make sure of that.

 

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So as for my blogs,  I will continue to blog and post exciting personal stories and experiences, but will be fully focused on writing my book.  It is a biography and, of course, will share life lessons along with humor and excitement for life.

 

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Joy is the second fruitage of the spirit listed in the bible of qualities we must cultivate (Galatians 5:22).  I am claiming joy as I embark into the unknown of my future.  Why is joy so vital when journeying  forward?  I am confident I can accomplish my goals, but how will I do it?  I have a choice to embrace the adventure or dread the struggle and work.  Who would you rather hike the Himalayas with, the joyful Isaac or the dreadful Isaac?  We must remember who we worship, the happy God (1 Timothy 1:11).  Sometimes the journey is the important part and not so much the destination.  Why waste time and energy with worry or dread?  We are all capable of much and with help from our Creator we are unshakeable.

Sincerely,

Isaac

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GIVING

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Volunteering brings me joy!

Everyday I ponder what I can do to be a happier person.  While I am well aware of the Bible principle that “there is more happiness in giving than receiving”(Acts 15:28), I still am intrigued by how this works.  Of course there is a level of joy to see someone elated to receive your gift.  Yet the same joy is felt by the giver and the receiver even if the giver is anonymous.

Why does this alway work when the majority  of people are focused on getting, not giving.  Well just as sure as my book hits the floor as I drop it, governed by the law of gravity, the law of giving is just as predictable.    Each day we must capture a picture of what our day would look if it were a great day.  I am often surprised at the end of the day I have closely matched my picture of a good day.  Everyone’s interpretation of a good day is different.  I think you just give it your best and believe it is good enough for today.     Will we dream of being joyful? If so, then giving and generosity will always be present.  For dreams to experience themselves we have to have faith in ourselves and want to become something a little different with each breath and thought.  We continue to evolve into a greater being each moment we live life this way.  I think it boils down to either living for yourself or living to give.

I must admit I have much to learn and own when it comes to this principle.  But awareness is the first step.  Wanting to acknowledge our weaknesses and concentrating on better willingness to change is a step in the right direction.  A good friend once encouraged me to start seeing each day as one step on a journey of a thousand steps.  He encouraged me to ask myself daily, “Am I taking a step forward”,  and not focus on how many more steps are between me and my destination.     I am still very much stepping one day at a time.  Everyday I feel I am getting faster and more efficient in my steps.  Before you know it I will be running, so the steps then are nothing to accomplish.  We are so encouraged with progress and we neglect to recognize it unless it is major.  Let’s all encourage ourselves and others by acknowledging we took our steps forward today.  Life is a journey let’s enjoy all we see and experience along the way.

 

Sincerely,

Isaac

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DREAMERS

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Dad says I can drive his car as long as it’s on Autopilot!

Driving somewhere and not knowing where to go can cause a person frustration and dread. Each day in my mind I feel somewhat as if I am mentaly driving this way.   I often find myself distracted at life’s scenery and forget I am in the drivers seat.  All happens so fast I don’t even realize where I am going.  What helps me is writing goals and posting them where I see them when I wake up and when I go to bed. I am currently reflecting on “The only limitation is that which one sets up in one’s own mind”. 

I need encouragement at times to not give up.  Each day I give up prevents me from seeing real success.  Giving up after so much effort  is as to say my time and energy are a mere withering leaf blown away in the winter wind.   I would drown in my own tears if I didn’t keep going.   Freedom from negative thoughts is what I am reaching for.  Without these obliterators of success we can see daily progress and thus see more of success popping thru the terrain of our minds.  Will we endure or will we drive to a place we hopelessly desire to get out of?  Why do we drive aimlessly in life without even considering our destination and its especially dangerous neighborhood?  Would you choose to endure a prison cell or roam the planet as free adventurist? Seems like a no-brainer, but we do this to ourselves and then when the cell doors close wonder why and how we ended up there.  We are not planning our destinations in life with near as much thought and precision as we do our vacations. Vacations are temporary and yet planned with way more thought and consideration than our future.  What are you dreaming for yourself?  Or have you stopped dreaming all together?

Sometimes I wonder what trip I would love to plan.  I think I would start with Australia, swim with the sharks and turtles and catch the Australian Current all the way to Thailand.  I would eat Panang Curry until I couldn’t move and then off swimming and sailing to The Great Wall of China.  I would climb to the top and pretend I was in the Karate Kid 2 movie and control a cobra with my calm slow controlled movements.  Wandering close I decide to hike the forests of China and eat bamboo with a family of pandas. Sweet dreams of adventures can wake us up to possibilities of finding great joy and happiness.   I am seeing much sorrow in young people today and we have to start dreaming again.  We cannot give up on miracles, as miracles happen everyday.  Why not dream of seeing ourselves receiving a miracle of life, purpose, and joy.  We might just grant ourselves permission to find our dreams formulate into reality right before our eyes.  We must resist sweet sorrows turning our dreams into nightmares.  We can destroy our dreams without even realizing it.  Just keep seeing yourself enjoying a quality life despite our tragedy and struggles.  We may just be a world traveler in our minds today, but a real globe trekker in our future.

Your fellow dreamer,

Isaac