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DEFEATING THE BULLY FROM WITHIN

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My story would depress even the strongest optimist.

My story is one of dark sorrow and empty sadness that is hollow.

Poisonous thoughts are what cause pain and depression.

Why does a person continue to choose to drink the glass of poison when a glass of love is just as easy to grab hold of?

I am emerging from the ashes of a troubled past.  Some say it is a miracle while others say,    “It is about time”.

How long must I want to see myself with love?

Depressing thoughts overwhelm me when I am on top of my game.

Feelings of helplessness are my crutches.  Pain is the ringing in my ears.

Each day is an obstacle course I must learn to navigate.

Fear of failure is my mountain to scale.

Promises of a new day keep me hopeful.

Battling with your negative mind is like warring with someone who knows all your weaknesses and shows no mercy.

The Bully that lies within your head is your worst enemy.

“I am nothing”, “I am hopeless”, “I am worthless”, are the bullets I continue to take.

Will I survive such brutality?

Will I be free of the Bully that lives inside of me?

Pray I am free and pray for all to be freed.

Love will always prevail if we choose it over hate.  This choice starts from within.

Good day my fellow warriors.  I am fighting until all negative thoughts perish.

Are you with me?

Love will prevail.  (1 Cor. 13:4-8A)

Love,

Isaac

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HELP

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What is help?  It means assistance of either thought or action.  The first step is recognizing you need assistance.  Then it requires the acceptance of such assistance.  Why is this important?  Without the acceptance or desire for help the game changing support could be right in front of you but never live because you didn’t follow the first two steps mentioned.

All of us need help at times.   I have come to the point where I am gratefully assembling a team of assistants to help reach goals I have placed before myself.  I am thrilled to share my new assistant with all my followers.  Her name is Kayleigh and she is one of the kindest positive people I know.  She will be assisting me with writing assorted deep content for my book.  She will also be helping me with research projects outside of the home.  Kayleigh is excited to join me on my journey and I couldn’t be happier to have such a believer and supporter on my team.  She has mastered a foreign language, spent time abroad and now she embarks on another adventure,  me.  She will not regret it.  I will make sure of that.

 

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So as for my blogs,  I will continue to blog and post exciting personal stories and experiences, but will be fully focused on writing my book.  It is a biography and, of course, will share life lessons along with humor and excitement for life.

 

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Joy is the second fruitage of the spirit listed in the bible of qualities we must cultivate (Galatians 5:22).  I am claiming joy as I embark into the unknown of my future.  Why is joy so vital when journeying  forward?  I am confident I can accomplish my goals, but how will I do it?  I have a choice to embrace the adventure or dread the struggle and work.  Who would you rather hike the Himalayas with, the joyful Isaac or the dreadful Isaac?  We must remember who we worship, the happy God (1 Timothy 1:11).  Sometimes the journey is the important part and not so much the destination.  Why waste time and energy with worry or dread?  We are all capable of much and with help from our Creator we are unshakeable.

Sincerely,

Isaac

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GIVING

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Volunteering brings me joy!

Everyday I ponder what I can do to be a happier person.  While I am well aware of the Bible principle that “there is more happiness in giving than receiving”(Acts 15:28), I still am intrigued by how this works.  Of course there is a level of joy to see someone elated to receive your gift.  Yet the same joy is felt by the giver and the receiver even if the giver is anonymous.

Why does this alway work when the majority  of people are focused on getting, not giving.  Well just as sure as my book hits the floor as I drop it, governed by the law of gravity, the law of giving is just as predictable.    Each day we must capture a picture of what our day would look if it were a great day.  I am often surprised at the end of the day I have closely matched my picture of a good day.  Everyone’s interpretation of a good day is different.  I think you just give it your best and believe it is good enough for today.     Will we dream of being joyful? If so, then giving and generosity will always be present.  For dreams to experience themselves we have to have faith in ourselves and want to become something a little different with each breath and thought.  We continue to evolve into a greater being each moment we live life this way.  I think it boils down to either living for yourself or living to give.

I must admit I have much to learn and own when it comes to this principle.  But awareness is the first step.  Wanting to acknowledge our weaknesses and concentrating on better willingness to change is a step in the right direction.  A good friend once encouraged me to start seeing each day as one step on a journey of a thousand steps.  He encouraged me to ask myself daily, “Am I taking a step forward”,  and not focus on how many more steps are between me and my destination.     I am still very much stepping one day at a time.  Everyday I feel I am getting faster and more efficient in my steps.  Before you know it I will be running, so the steps then are nothing to accomplish.  We are so encouraged with progress and we neglect to recognize it unless it is major.  Let’s all encourage ourselves and others by acknowledging we took our steps forward today.  Life is a journey let’s enjoy all we see and experience along the way.

 

Sincerely,

Isaac

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DREAMERS

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Dad says I can drive his car as long as it’s on Autopilot!

Driving somewhere and not knowing where to go can cause a person frustration and dread. Each day in my mind I feel somewhat as if I am mentaly driving this way.   I often find myself distracted at life’s scenery and forget I am in the drivers seat.  All happens so fast I don’t even realize where I am going.  What helps me is writing goals and posting them where I see them when I wake up and when I go to bed. I am currently reflecting on “The only limitation is that which one sets up in one’s own mind”. 

I need encouragement at times to not give up.  Each day I give up prevents me from seeing real success.  Giving up after so much effort  is as to say my time and energy are a mere withering leaf blown away in the winter wind.   I would drown in my own tears if I didn’t keep going.   Freedom from negative thoughts is what I am reaching for.  Without these obliterators of success we can see daily progress and thus see more of success popping thru the terrain of our minds.  Will we endure or will we drive to a place we hopelessly desire to get out of?  Why do we drive aimlessly in life without even considering our destination and its especially dangerous neighborhood?  Would you choose to endure a prison cell or roam the planet as free adventurist? Seems like a no-brainer, but we do this to ourselves and then when the cell doors close wonder why and how we ended up there.  We are not planning our destinations in life with near as much thought and precision as we do our vacations. Vacations are temporary and yet planned with way more thought and consideration than our future.  What are you dreaming for yourself?  Or have you stopped dreaming all together?

Sometimes I wonder what trip I would love to plan.  I think I would start with Australia, swim with the sharks and turtles and catch the Australian Current all the way to Thailand.  I would eat Panang Curry until I couldn’t move and then off swimming and sailing to The Great Wall of China.  I would climb to the top and pretend I was in the Karate Kid 2 movie and control a cobra with my calm slow controlled movements.  Wandering close I decide to hike the forests of China and eat bamboo with a family of pandas. Sweet dreams of adventures can wake us up to possibilities of finding great joy and happiness.   I am seeing much sorrow in young people today and we have to start dreaming again.  We cannot give up on miracles, as miracles happen everyday.  Why not dream of seeing ourselves receiving a miracle of life, purpose, and joy.  We might just grant ourselves permission to find our dreams formulate into reality right before our eyes.  We must resist sweet sorrows turning our dreams into nightmares.  We can destroy our dreams without even realizing it.  Just keep seeing yourself enjoying a quality life despite our tragedy and struggles.  We may just be a world traveler in our minds today, but a real globe trekker in our future.

Your fellow dreamer,

Isaac

 

 

 

 

Music

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Sweet sounds of music echo upstairs as my siblings practice for their music lesson.  Each of their skills are amazing.  I see one day my siblings playing songs I have composed.  I start  to dream when I hear music.  Nothing else inspires me more than lyrics and music seeking emotional connection.  Each ear must dance  opening with enticement and anticipation of the next note. How is it we are able to experience such audible joy?

Just try to sit and listen to your favorite music and see how it makes you feel.  I hope you are moved to be grateful and joyful and alive.  If not, maybe you need to widen out in your music choices.

Music is vibrations that please our personal tastes.  Our taste often reflect what state we are in or what we desire to be in.  My mom loves happy songs that make her want to get up and dance.  I love it when she dances with me.  My sister, Sophia, is a natural dancer who presents you with a gift  in every move.  So what music moves you and why?  I personally love Mozart.  He is genius at combining notes in an unexpected quick way right to the ears and heart.  His combination of Fibonacci rhythms keep me intrigued the most.  Under different circumstances I would definitely compose music.  I feel that every great movie is enhanced by the musical score.  Even the trees dance to the sound of the wind.  I love to watch the hummingbirds flutter to the sound of their own wings.  Musical sounds are interesting as some create a sense of sorrow or fright, while others stretch your mind to a place in your past or inspire you to picture yourself in a dreamscape.  Only music can inspire your imagination to this level with a few notes played in perfect complimentary sequencing.  Everyone connects to music whether they play an instrument, sing, dance, or simply tap their feet to the beat.  What music best describes us as a person?  I will stick to Mozart as his music is a bit whimsical yet intense and precise, and in my opinion, genius.  Will music inspire you today?  It will if you listen with joy and appreciation for the gift of music in our lives. Whether animal or instrument, all is waiting for us as the conductor to start the orchestra!

Melodically,

Isaac

DAN THE SEA CAPTAIN

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                                                      Dan The Sea Captain

Dan is the Captain of a band of boarder collie misfits who set sail just off the coast of California in search of the lost at sea Prince Iz-Man.
At sea the ship endured much turbulence. Each day at sea was valuable to the life of our dear prince. Iz-Man meant the world to Dan as he was once the prince’s dog of choice. Having a childhood fever the young prince made Dan his best friend and translator. The young prince had muted his voice out of sorrow for his life as it had been. Dan was his only joy in his present life. Just as they started to live happily came a jealous Sea Monster envious of their joy. Life shifted when the Sea Monster swept our dear young nobleman out to sea during his daily swim. Dan immediately mustered up a group of hunting dogs to motion a rescue of his loyal friend who had become his world.
Not under the turbulent sea would anyone dare sail but Dan. He searched night and day for his nobleman. Having sailed the sea he moved to the most dreaded South Pacific. Life would be sour as he would have to sneak out his nobleman from the hands of the Sea Monster. More than strength, love moved him to never give up. Rescue was the only mission with soul. So he turned on his team of trackers to test the Sea Monster.
sea-monster-2Surprisingly, they found the Sea Monster hiding much like Sea Monsters do in a cove in the deep South Sea. Love was so strong that jealousy could not see the light of day.
The Sea Monster was sleeping so sound the boarder collies sneaked past him unnoticed. They quickly grabbed the young prince and hurried to their ship. One collie accidentally stepped on the toe of the Sea Monster and woke him up. The Sea Monster then noticed his prince was gone and started to chase the pack of dogs as they scurried onto their ship with the young prince by their side. Inches past the reach of the Sea Monster the ship caught a strong wind sweeping it out to sea.

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Fearing the Sea Monster would follow, Captain Dan had ordered a barrier of sharks waiting that the Sea Monster not dare cross. Dan’s sweet special Prince was safe again.isaacs-book-ship-2
Some say the Sea Monster still exists, but as long as Prince Iz-Man has Captain Dan at his side he no longer fears life or anything in it. Hope and happiness was then restored and healed the young prince.

THE END

Written by Isaac Dzama

May 2015

Every year in school we are required to write a short story.  Little did I know just three months after writing this I would receive my service dog, Barris.  We may not sail together but he is certainly my dog of choice.

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VENGEANCE

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Hope and faith while together are strong

Without endurance we will never belong.

We swing in and out of danger within our heads

Yet we only find the world wishes us dead.

We wake up everyday wanting to fly  away peacefully as a dove

Yearning for acceptance and love.

Even the wee little dragonfly draws a beautiful  picture of focus in flight

Envious I spin and sputter  with words I still fight.

Call me crazy and lazy you can

Very opposite is the truth at hand.

I will honor your strength and might

Yet words from my mouth is what is not in your sight.

I am dreaming of a time when I can be

The person who speaks and is set free.

Until then, I will listen as others reach the goals of my dreams

Knowing my time is near, just you wait and see.

Isaac Dzama

November 29,2016

 

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